Still no word from the Dr's office. :( Makes me a little nervous because if it's taking this long than they must be having a hard time pinning down a date for me.
Today was a little sad. I kept thinking I could have had surgery and been in recovery now. Bummer! Obviously it wasn't my time. A blessing in disguise. Dang blessings! ;) I've always thought it would be so nice to know what that blessing/reason is. Wouldn't that be fun?! But then where would the life lesson be? These are the times that test our faith. It would be so easy to just float through life with no trials to test our faith.. oh what a dream! But it's those tests/trials of faith that build and shape us into a better person. Helping us to become stronger each time. Even though it's hateful. And what I've been going through is just that- hateful! I've never understood when people say they are grateful for their trials. I've always thought "are you crazy?!". Clearly they must be mental. But over time, as I have grown, learned and accepted, I realize what they mean..just kind of! I still HATE trials. But it's not necessarily the 'trial' they are grateful for, but rather the opportunity to become a better person. They are grateful for the blessings that come with not giving up and riding out the toughest situations. Because to each, whatever they are going through is just the worst thing possible. Sadly, it can always be worse. I look at others and the things they are going through and think "yep, that sucks, but I'd much rather take your trial than mine" haha..Then there are still others I know, who are going through something so unbearably awful to me, I have no clue how they are keeping their head up, and I would choose my trial over theirs in a heart beat! I know some people that are truly amazing.
At the end of the day, I have MANY blessings to count! A caring husband who loves me, a nice roof over my head, a heater in the winter and AC in the summer! 2 dogs who I adore and bring me joy, a king size bed!!! The greatest family anyone could ever image, jobs when I need them, freedom when I don't :) the most patient and caring parents who will do anything at anytime for me, cute clothes on my back and food on my table. I have 2 eyes, 2 bionic ears and a nose that loves to smell odd things just to name a few. It's safe to say- My life is pretty great!
